Mum of one and American rapper, Cardi B, is known for keeping it real, and she embraces that same attitude for a new interview with Harper’s Bazaar. The “Money” rapper is the magazine’s cover star, and in the profile she opens up about experiencing postpartum depression after the birth of her daughter, Kulture Kiari, now 7 months old.
“I thought I was going to avoid it,” Cardi said. “When I gave birth, the doctor told me about postpartum, and I was like, ‘Well, I’m doing good right now, I don’t think that’s going to happen.’ But out of nowhere, the world was heavy on my shoulders.”
Despite appearing to breastfeed her daughter in the “Money” music video, Cardi said breastfeeding wasn’t something she was able to do. “It was too hard,” she said.
After giving birth in July, Cardi said she felt like she was in a haze and ultimately dropped out of her highly anticipated tour with Bruno Mars upon realizing it would be too difficult to bring her daughter on the road.
The rapper is yet to hire professional help because according to her, she’s afraid she can’t trust anyone, so recently her mom has been helping out. Although the Grammy-nominated singer said she started feeling better a few months after Kulture was born, she is still struggling with some aspects of postpartum life.
“For some reason, I still don’t feel like my body’s the same,” she said. “I feel like I don’t have my balance right yet. When it comes to heels, I’m not as good at walking anymore. I feel like I’m holding a weight on me. I don’t know why because I’m skinnier than I’ve ever been. But there’s an energy I haven’t gotten back yet that I had before I was pregnant. It’s just the weirdest thing.”